Don’t ever depend on someone else to bring you happiness. Don’t ever think that without someone you will never be happy. Your desire for happiness lies within you. Don’t ever make the mistake of placing that in someone elses hands. Please. Don’t.
There is this girl who lives in my apartment with her mother, she must be only 14 years old, 15 at a push. My neighbours laughed about her to me, telling me she hides down the alley and smokes old smoked out cigarette stubs she finds in the dirt, that she has conversations to herself, has no friends and isn’t in any form of Education. They described her as ”very lonely, sad and mentally retarded.” I have never made any effort to speak to her. She was smoking again tonight, down the alley where we put our binbags. She got very startled when she seen me, I think perhaps she thought I was her mother or something. Anyway, I tried making small talk with her about how chilly is was, and then asked her name. I learnt her name is Alaska. She soon became very nervous and uncomfortable by me and made up an excuse to run inside. I’d really like to know what goes on inside her mind, try and maybe befriend her. I must also be very patient and respect her privacy at the same time though. Baby steps lauren, baby steps.
who am I kidding I want to be loved by someone and I want attention and kisses and stability